As I sit here writing this, it is just a little after midnight on January 1, 2008, in China. Two years ago on this date, a woman I will never know made the ultimate sacrifice and left her newborn baby girl on a roadside in Liangping, China. Today, that precious angel baby sits at my feet playing with her new tea set and humming quietly to herself. I’ve thought of Lily’s birth mom a lot today. I wish there were some way I could thank her for this amazing gift she has given me. I hope that somehow she will sense that her baby girl is alive and well. I said an extra prayer for her today. I asked God to tell her that the baby she could not keep was healthy and happy and loved beyond measure.
I can not imagine how she felt that cold January day, but she will forever have my gratitude and deepest admiration. I wonder if her heart was broken when she made the decision to leave her. I imagine her hiding and watching, making sure someone came soon to find her newborn girl. I wonder if she took one look at those chubby little cheeks and thought she was the most beautiful thing she had ever seen. I wonder if she has dimples like my Lily Mei. I wonder if she longed to keep her, but knew she couldn’t.
We let one of Lily Mei’s pink party balloons go this morning. I put a little note on it that said “Dear Lily’s Birth Mom, Thank you for giving us our precious Lily Mei. With Love and Gratitude, The Carters”. I hope today is a peaceful day for you, Lily’s birth mom. I thank you from the bottom of my heart.
I can not imagine how she felt that cold January day, but she will forever have my gratitude and deepest admiration. I wonder if her heart was broken when she made the decision to leave her. I imagine her hiding and watching, making sure someone came soon to find her newborn girl. I wonder if she took one look at those chubby little cheeks and thought she was the most beautiful thing she had ever seen. I wonder if she has dimples like my Lily Mei. I wonder if she longed to keep her, but knew she couldn’t.
We let one of Lily Mei’s pink party balloons go this morning. I put a little note on it that said “Dear Lily’s Birth Mom, Thank you for giving us our precious Lily Mei. With Love and Gratitude, The Carters”. I hope today is a peaceful day for you, Lily’s birth mom. I thank you from the bottom of my heart.
7 comments:
what a beautiful heartfelt post. I too pray and think of my children's birth families often.
She is really precious! Happy New Year!
WOW....how wonderfully put. We will always feel a connection to these birth moms, won't we? I know God has to give them peace somehow. Thanks for sharing this with us! Happy Birthday Lily Mei!! Happy New Year too!!
Buffi
That is really beautiful Monica. My eyes are wet.
I belive that God will fill Lily's birth mothers heart with a sense of peace as each day and year passes. This little girl is blessed beyond measure to have been brought to such an awesome forever family.
Once again you blog has brought tears to my eyes.
Love
Becky
That really touched our hearts. We feel the same way toward Sam's birth mom. Lily Mei and her forever family are indeed blessed by the grace of God! Happy 2nd Birthday Lily Mei!!
Susan, Nick, and Sam Moss
Oh Monica that is soo sweet! Hope Lily had a wonderful birthday, sorry the wishes are late!!
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